Wednesday, 28 March 2012

Suicide #32 (Quad-naza)

Dropping off the cliff,
Looking how I miss...
Your jump, your fate,
All now is gone in seconds, i'm late...
To stop the world from gasping,
Why'd you leave,
I remember.. our first kiss.
So sorry that I made you do this,
My only part in life that started to shatter,
All my memories in my mind began to flutter,
As I, my, first tear drops down,
Deep down, no sound,
Please don't go~
The fucking sad moments just have to pass so slow..

Whern shes cared #31 (Quad-naza)

When she cry,
He closes his eyes,
And pets her gently on the head,
"Silly girl, cheer up,"
Gentle kiss , that feeling she once missed.
As she falls down, deep down, no sound.
Surrounded by his aura that faded most tears,
Killing her fears,
She then lays on his chest,
Falling asleep down into bliss, out the mess.

Looking like a fool without you #30 (Quad-naza)

I once said my life changed,
Deep inside still that sadness stays,
Nothing to feel, no joy remains,
Why'd you turn off the beat,
My heartbeat, that once rose back from the deep.
You promised all the conditions,
And now you run away from my emotions.
Trying to maintain the balance of hope,
But hope just doesn't exist in my story that was once told.
I don't miss neither hate,
I just want to smile back up and face my fate.
It was all thanks to you,
My laughter, my joy, all now gone, I just look like a fool,
All because of "without you"...
You lit me up once but I fell back down,
Cause I took you for granted, now let's all frown.
Apologies, depressions , relationships,
I just want my story to become how it once used to be.

You were one of the longest I've ever held on.

Update #6

Poop the world! Ben has ditched his
blog and went inside the portal of
"school"afication. I'm joking. Lol i'm just
been lately lazy to post stuff but
I do have the poems written and prepared :P
So here you go guys! Quad-naza! (Bonanza my ass)
Four fresh made poems related to my
past years i've once felt before and now
again.. 

Wednesday, 21 March 2012

Update #5

When I said you "Lighten Upped My Heart"
I mean't it.
So badly.
It's been 14months but 
things changed cause of this.
I don't miss you.
I miss the memories with you.
I hope you still kept that drawing I gave you,
I cried while drawing that, knowing that finally someone
understood me in my life.
I talk cause of you,
you gave me guts to do so.
I smile cause of you,
you gave me joy to do so.
I scream cause of you,
you gave me the best year i've ever had.
I shouldn't had.
You shouldn't ask.
I shouldn't accept.
You shouldn't apologize.
I shouldn't cry.
Or should I?

; - ;


Sunday, 18 March 2012

600 Words Poem Challenge By Z Xuan || Theme : Love #29

People come across certain emotions,
Only with them, we have a life like a simulation.
There is unexplainable feelings in our soul,
Only our emotions can unfold.
Love is one of the simple complicated,
Can only be felt by the unknown sense,
One of the few emotions that may get intense.
It's like a virus spreading in our life,
But it's not something we can push it aside,
It's something we tend to come through over life's time.
Mostly it starts in our friendship,
Turning and evolving it into a relationship.
We tend to take it for granted,
Making ripped hearts un-mended.
Breaking every heart when we promised not to,
The victim will just have to overcome breakthrough.
We fear love cause of rejection,
Stress , confusion , depression.
Mostly sadistic, loss of friendship,
Losing the part of social we thought we could keep.
Faling to jump over the sadness by a leap,
Falling to the heart's scar down deep.
Some try to avoid it,
Some ignore love's every one bit.
Sadly every one of us went through love,
Some even fell for it's high above.
Love is innocent so its fine,
Don't blame anyone even yourself when you get a cut inside,
Like I said its innocent,
A rare feeling occuring or emotion.
Just try it for once,
No regrets unless you love those cunts,
There is people with no heart.
Just playing with love and ending it as they may,
Fake love , day after day.
But one day, their misused emotion will end at bay.
Being the victim of love is a risk,
It's just up to you to approach or forget in the mist.
Telling someone you like him or her is typical,
Once you get experienced you'll do it radical.
Over using it too can cause numb,
Doesn't matter, both the victim and host will get it after a large sum.
So approach it wisely with caution aswell,
Like I said certain people misuse it well.
Don't do stupid things when you breakup,
It'd just push your life out without any doubt.
Suicide , murder , kill,
Just because of jealous ending up filled with guilt.
It's okay, sometimes let go and move on,
Don't say your life is miserable since the day you were born,
Finding someone who loves you more will last,
Not forever though , since time passes fast.
Love isn't a must,
It's neither an entertainment lust.
It balances both emotion in a deep quarrel,
Positive joy into negative sorrow.
Ends with sadness as always,
Causing the feeling to decay.
Once it's gone,
Imagine a life with no love , no more.
Balance your heart by not overloading it's core,
Neither making yourself lose it, dropping it to the deepest floor.
This emotion like I said is complicated to think,
But it comes naturally in a simple eye blink.
Control your emotions to balance love,
Once your'e there , you'll find that person, your true beloved.
Love's existence has gave us purification in our hearts,
New life paths cause of it's destiny cards.
I hope you guys won't love for just the fun part,
Please love it as if it is, not a bad fart.
It too has it's limit but rarely reached,
Takes forever to break the rules in love cause of our heart is filled with it's rich.
It only can be found when you seek,
Finding it is like a priceless gift once you reach it's peak,
Sadly we just don't appreciate how valuable it is,
It's peculiar when you think deep,
Understanding one word , "love" , is powerful,
Some just say "Love are for fools."
Ironic to them, it's not what they think,
All they will get is a mixture of heartless ink.
I wish you were still part of my life,
You are still always on my mind,
I just want to turn back time.

607 Words

Thursday, 15 March 2012

Music #1

Hey guys, if you guys want to know
what I usually listen during the week i'd post it
here and you might like it aswell.
This week I kept repeating this dubstep (Hardstyle) podcast.

[Hardstyle] Jack Of Sound Mix (Fusion Records)


[Dubstep] - Day One - For The Stars

If you enjoyed these videos, go to their channel and subscribe for
more of it :] Its worth it. And you can download certain "free releases" songs
of Monstercat in their description in videos. U can too buy
their albums if you really love em so much :'3

Alright bye guys.

-Ben