Missed You T u T ❤ #21

I'M SO SORRY EVERYONE!

I'VE BEEN GONE FOR LIKE A MONTH -n-..

Was busy with Chinese New Year preps.. so yeah.

Ah well back to updating my good ol blog c:

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Dedicated to my darling Nessa <3

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Loving you has been something,

Knowing your part of the story,

Your life with it's joy and gory,

I understand now,

Your heart I promise it's safe with me,

I will try and let you see,

let you know,

that I am the one who will hug you when your'e cold,

telling you everything is alright when your'e depressed,

Giving you the best moments you ever had,

Comfort you when your'e feeling sad,

Be the guy who you ever wished for,

Loving you right to the core.

Nessa no matter what happens I'll be there,

Everywhere , in your heart <3

*Even if i'm not there beside you , I'll always be by your heart.*

I missed you >~<!! <3333333333 LOVE YEWWWW T u T~

Bear I Love You ❤ #20

Din't know I would come this far,

Your heart trapped in my mind like a scar.

My emotions for you flows faster than a car,

It's okay, I love you just for who you are.

Your'e cute,innocent and kind,

All the memories with you stuck in my mind.

Even if it's just a game,

Emotions are just in a different way,

Nessa it's okay don't be shy,

Just like the first day we met and saying Hi.

Everytime I say good night sweetdreams,goodbye,

Just feeling that as if it was the end of my life,

Wishing that I would be by your side,

Telling you everything would be alright.

I'm glad you trust me,

After all the things you've seen,

All the things you've overcome,

Such as "she" bullying you over a large sum.

It's good now I'll help you through,

Over these heaps of troubles she got you into.

I'll guide you through the dark sad days,

I'll make you forget the bad memories and let them fade,

I'll be the one to protect you till the day that i'm dead.

If you cry,

I'll always be there by your side,

If your'e sad,

I'll be the one to calm your mad.

I will and always be there and give you advice,

Making sure you'll be alright.

Even though love never last long,

I want you to be strong,

Whatever happens who knows?

Doesn't matter i'll let time slowly flow,

So that things wouldn't have an ending like books do so.

Nessa,

I love you ❤

-Ben

Video I made for you

Story o.o #19

Everytime we are talking,

Or maybe just texting,

I always thought I said something wrong,

Also odd

Plus felt like a total frod.

When you ignore,

My mind just went sore.

Hoping that I did no "faults"..

I'm always worried,

Bout words that entered our story.

"My "sorries",

Are sometimes just "worries".

But hey it hasn't reach it's gory,

So let's hope that nothing bad will occur to our Story.

[Drawing] #5 : Sanity

Drawing of the Week (Early Post)

Sanity Comes After Confusion

Remembering.. o.o #18

Remembering your pretty blue eyes,

Turning red as if it was putting on a disguise.

Remembering your sadness,your tears,

As I was shaking in total fear.

Remembering how I said "My dear.."

As I escape with you on my arms while I kept saying "PLEASE SOMEBODY HELP!"

Remembering how I grew tired and fell.

Your cold body drops away from my palms,

The wind breeze drifts as if it was saying "Hey , be calm."

I tried to aid your unbearable wounds.

Remembering how you tried to talk but there was no sound.

Suddenly -bang- as I felt a gunshot from behind,

"It's.. over.." these two words spinning over and over in my mind.

Remembering how I lay beside you,

All of that end occurs..

How am i still getting these "Remembers"?

Rem-..remembering, closing my eyes..

Feeling teeth devouring my flesh at night.

A crunch in my eyeball.. and that was the end of my "Remembers" sight.

My last words to myself was,

"I remember the remembered."

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ORIGINAL POEM (Written in school :P Bad handwriting)

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First week of School o.o #17

Sometimes it's just yourself,

Bored as ever like your'e in a cell.

All of us waiting for the school bell,

-sigh- all these subjects that we dwell..

So boring just like hell.

Two retards sitting beside me,

Always laughing in class... fine leave it be.

These two are the ones that aren't the busy bees.

Ignorance is bliss as I usually say,

Leave the noise all at bay,

Let them cherish as well as they decay.

Noisy as ever damn things change,

Every year is just a big range.

Oh well after exam i'll be insane,

As in playing SA or LoL everyday.

Waking up every 6 "aye-am",

Isnt that bad..

Just sometimes when you wake you go mad,

Ugh.. few more minutes till it rings.

Ima go pack my bag and wait for the student screams,

All those "fuck school" faces I could see.

Gotto go ciao.. as the school bell rings.

[Drawing] #4 : That Demonic Heart

Drawing of the Week

That reflection of a person with a Demonic Heart.

Sins o.o #16

FUUUUCK. I totally forgot

bout updating my blog after school started..

ugh.. sorry guys x__x been a tiring week of school.

Anyways i'll try to write a poem in 15minutes which is riiiiight now.

I have tution in 20minutes so I have to rush.

Here I go.

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The light vanishes,

"he" dismisses.

Screams,echoes around the room..

As you stare up the moon,

a voice whispers "welcome to your doom."

Silently, a mist came through,

Covering your heart in fear,

"Don't be afraid my dear."

As you dive in sanity as your eyes starts to leak tears.

-shuts- goes the door.

You panic as you were totally blank and afraid,

"What.. what are you do..doing?"

"Things have been said."

Instantly the walls snap,

Blood drips out on the floor,

"Your sins aha.. is now blissfully gone."

As the mysterious figure walks away,

Slowly vanishing out of the hallway.

"Sins can't be seen,

but the punishment must be keen."

The words was said

while the body decays.

Random Poem o.o #15

Sorry guys I know I missed out

some posts due to my school.

So I won't be much active but i'll still post.

Anyways the Poll result was

So here's the promised Random poem :]

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Rainbow unicorns with horny horns,

Galloping around the cookie at mid-dawn.

Fork and spoons,

Licking baboons.

As they continue eating elf cocoon.

A random flower says "MEET YOUR DOOOM!"

Wait! Nobody move!

Hes going to fart.. OHHH FUUUCK BOOOOOOOOOOOOOM.

lolwut.

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Ben is Dramatic O: o.o #14

Sometimes there's these days,

Which makes you so disgraced.

Still we must face,

Please just go away....

When we meet face to face,

I just wish I can have both shyness all erased,

I miss the old days...

Chances can't be taken,

All because it's already been faken.

Oh forsake...

Done and doings can't be replaced,

Even it's an average,

Because that's the truth..

Not so sooth..

I can't stop thinking bout you,

Cause you helped me so much..

Here accept this Thank You.

-To The Ones Who Changed My Life

Hooly shit Ben is in Love o.o #13

I know I'm almost there,

just a few more depressions I have to bare.

Sigh.. it's kinda like a living nightmare,

But i'll try to be your knight, never scared.

Your'e someone that I would care,

If you need me i'll always be there.

Being mean to you? I wouldn't even dare.

U look pretty with whatever you wear.

Your pretty eyes I would stare,

Baby I just want you to know that your'e rarer than rare :3

<3