>w<; #107

So now you made your decision

I know it was hard going through all those emotions

I'm glad you chose me

I'll treat you well, you'll see :]

 > w <; <3

Good nights my love o: 

It's Okay If You. #106

Thinking about you is like heaven

Missing you till i'm asleep at eleven

Wakes up during weekends at seven

Just to check on you since theres no school sessions

I'll wait and accept any choice you choose

If you choose him then it's cool

I understand as long your'e happy

Go ahead it's not like what I want it to be

If you do I want you to know that

I am still your friend and never think i'm sad

I'll still help you in every way I can

Hey i'm done nagging c: I know we both will understand

Goodnight sleep tight

Don't worry I won't try to sneak up on you and bite

> u < ;

Past is Past #105

The past is the past,

Nothing much to look back into the dust.

Like leaves falling down from a tree and decay,

They will eventually grow back,so don't be afraid.

Just know that i'm always here,

Someone to pat your back,lend you a shoulder to cry on when your'e in fear.

Cry as much as you want I have all night,

Just as long you smile in the end then it's fine.

c: <3

.

So after all of that,

 Here I stand,

Where you told me you liked me more than a friend.

I'm happy I really am.

Mmkay so I don't know now,

This may be crazy as it sounds.

I'm rewriting this 100th poem by myself,

"I love you" simply is just want this wants to tell.

Hmm but still since your'e still with Light,

I don't see the point of posting this letting it on sight.

But if we were together,

I can't say it'd last forever.

o.o

Daniel #104

So here I am,

Standing alone again.

A tear drips down from my eye,

A heart sinking moment.. I just want to die.

I'm just really sad now,

Using other stuffs as a distraction.. cheesy as this sounds.

I want to change my story,

I don't need you to end it with just a sorry.

I just want you to know,

Your'e still my friend no matter how troublesome is the flow,

No matter how far our hatred goes..

Two is better than one

Two is better than one.

Digest #1

Digest 1 : 12minutes. Called this digest cause im training myself to draw every second no stop-to-think moments and no mistakes and finish it fast. Goal : 5minutes.

o.o

v -v Whose that pokemon?

I'm not moody today - u - 

Finally I smiled.. or did I o.o?

And no i'm not shaving o n o; 

A Chance

Was studying geography.. Hmm 

Gold ores in Kuala Lipis and Raub, Tin ores in Yan uhm.. uhmm..

Uhhh.. LOLOL. Wasted my time studying.. oh Kuprum in Mamut c:

THEN I DREW THIS,

SCREW GEOGRAPHY.

No matter how bad they are,

They still have a heart;

Give them a chance,

And they might wake up.

Right part : Half shaped heart representing Hope and Positiveness

 Left part : Demonic structures representing Evil and Negativeness

Bottom part : Small hearts representing supports to heal the negativeness.

Now stop saying those thangs are flies :c 

Resist The Love #103

I feel like you felt it too,

So tell me if you do.

Cause I can't stand it anymore,

I just want to love you straight to the core.

Thinking of you is like a drug,

Forgetting you? That'd need luck.

Cause your'e stuck on my mind,

Rapid thoughts about you is all that I can find.

 <3

Look Up #102

What do you do when you fell?

What do you do when you can't look up from the well?

What do you do when your'e stranded alone?

Talking to yourself inside about those assholes.

It's alright I know it's hard to face them bullies,

But remember they're just using you to entertain themselves which is just silly.

Just don't do the same like them c: -pets head-

Cause your'e more mature than them and I know it !

Cheer up don't lose your smile,

All your friends are here your'e now safe and sound.

Ben's MMORPG Bestiary #1

So before I started writing poems or drawing

abstracts, I use to love Final Fantasy graphics and their monsters and 

so goes to other MMORPG games. I just adore drawing

and looking at the details of the creatures placed in them. I trained

myself to draw them when I was like a kid c: But it was

like childish cartoon, anyways I'm redoing it and here it is,

meet Ben's MMORPG Bestiary.

Mangrove Maneater

I try making it look like it's in a game and

place all it's stat and weaknesses etc. You boys

should get the drift of what i'm saying xD

Ionix Warrior

No all of these are not from any games so

don't say "Stop copying others they have copyrights!"

I created these by myself and will do more if I wish

to. I know it looks childish but meh my childhood <3

Don't judge them as cartoons, want to know where I got my

inspiration for my abstracts? Bahamut from Final Fantasy. 

Valefor's wing.

 Ifrit's spikes around him.

All of these I took out and drew something else.

Glide

Glide away from everything,

No turning back just moving forward.

101# Purpose Skip 100th Poem

I skipped 100th poem on purpose,

It's supposed to be about you and us.

But now to think of it I don't think I have the chance,

The way of how I'm going to tell you is tough.. probably take months.

I'm just not prepared or maybe you might not,

I don't want to ask and get caught.

It's hard and I don't know what else to do but ignore this,

I deleted the 100th poem letting it disappear in bliss.

I'll post it when I find the right time,

To tell the true colours of my feelings towards you that is now in my mind.

I'm sorry but yeah i'll just skip what I have to,

Cause it's the best of us to remain unknowned further clued.

Illuminate [Glow In The Bright]

Sorry for bad quality I have a bad photography skill :x

Theme to self : Illuminate 

(Suggest me themes by posting your request at the cbox / comment this post)

Motto : Glow In The Bright.

Time Taken : 43 minutes for outline, 32minutes for glow effect (Black Pen)

Haven't done a 'glow effect' drawing in a long time, so i'd try out on this c:

My outline was Red and not Black. I used 0.7 Gel Pen Ink to make the outline since

0.7 is thicker. Then trace the Black Ink (0.5 Gel Pen) around the outline. I traced three times

to make it look less boring. Enjoy ^^V

Close #99

So close to you,

So far from us.

What is this curse?

I won't stop walking forward,

Believe me i'm close I won't run like a coward.

Just don't let go of me,

I'm inside your heart and you know that, just let it be.

I'll accompany you throughout your tears,

I'm coming hold on i'm near.

Meanwhile here's my shoulder,

One day i'll be the one to hold her.

Music Has Been A Part Of My Life #98

I'm bored everyone's offline,

10:27pm gives me the sign.

Sleeping soon but before that,

I'll listen to music till it's time no i'm not sad.

Just want to hear back normal songs,

Been listening to electro dubsteps etc my ears would go wrong.

Mm Dear Maria by All Time Low,

Remember this song Ashlyn? Ah the memories, now all so cold.

All of you gone,

Rarely on.

"Sick.. sick of sleeping on the floor~"

Ah this song.. no these songs sang by them gave me chills to the core.

Secondhand Serenade , All Time Low and Faber Drive,

Part of my emotional moment played bands when I start to sigh.

Let's just say they accompanied me in life,

Until now I listen to Secondhand Serenade when i'm depressed inside.

I listen to All Time Low to remember you and how fun everything was before,

Faber Drive too was one of those bands that got me till now when my tears pour.

Ah I just really miss those days,

Spamming my replay button over and over not like it'd decay.

Each replay is like a rewind of my memories,

Seeing what I use to be, what I use to miss.

~All Time Low~

Stella

Dear Maria Count Me In

Weightless

Time Bomb

Umbrella 

Just Feel Like Dancing

~Secondhand Serenade~

Half Alive <3

Your Call

Maybe

Broken

A Twist In My Story

It's Not Over

You And I

~Faber Drive~

Tongue Tied

Sleepless Nights

When I'm With You

Mechtastic

Top : Drawn by Leong Jia Hui aka Foofa Clover LOL.

Anyways do say happy birthday to her cause it's her bday c: 15th June.

Bottom : Requested by Daniel and I drew it. He wanted a Max Payne pose jumping

down a building except not Max but a mech. So yeah i've never drew

a mech before and this was my third time o.o but the body was weird.

Still yeah c: Thanks to Hui for helping with the "futuristic" gun and a random anime she drew :P

Meet the Stinghopper

So i've been challenged to draw something else beside from my

"boring" abstractical symbols. So here it is. Meet the Stinghopper.

It looked like I just finished it in an hour but it took 5 hours so

appreciate it.

Did some thinking before I drew this fella.

The arrows represent how it will look like for example the arrow drawn

above is like as if he is having a pose like a praying mantis.

The bone part was me trying to form a grasshopper + mantis + scorpion's actions

together.

Mind the bad camera shootings. The cannon was

kind of a failure but I sketched it anyways and the legs.

I wanted to make his leg like a grasshopper.

His sting as a cannon (Dual) and his arms like a Mantis.

So there you have it. Stinghopper. My second Mech after

Chlorophox. 

Meet the Abstract Mech

So I wanted to try something new.

And got this thing.

Ignore the pencil part, it's just me testing out my own

mech leg and gears and etc .-.

Hardest Part Of Life #97

Always wishing that he will be gone,

Besides from this wish there too are more.

Just pretend he doesn't exist,

Forget everything about him.

I know it's hard,

But I believe you can do it with all your heart.

Depression #96

He was all depressed,

Because of all that...

After all those tries,

After all those midnight cries.

I swear he did his best,

To finish this life saddening mess.

Picking The Right One #95

It's just like who to choose,

Like a cupboard filled with books.

Each filled with it's own interest,

Hoping to find one that relates us.

It's not that I don't know who,

It's just that I feel bad for the other too.

I don't know,

Thinking too much like i'm blindfolded.

In my own dark world,

I see nothing but blankness as I swirl.

Down into my paths of who to reach,

Who was the one that I truely seek.

Here we go again, Alice #94

And here you go,

Talking behind my back like I didn't know.

Just make sure that you tell them how your guilt is,

Rey too that pathetic son of a bitch.

Sending me mails doesn't solve anything,

Cause in the end you'll just be using the excuse "Why me?"

How lame you are gossiping behind,

Why not talk to me face to face instead of hiding inside.

Nah you can't cause you were the wrong,

Him aswell, sigh, letting you both ruin my dubstep songs.

Your'e just lucky that you don't know me in real,

Or you'll get it fully with my will.

What benefits do you get from talking behind?

No benefits just more hatred and sins your'e gonna get when you die.

I am not pissed neither depressed,

Just want everyone else to know the rest.

Of how a little bomb your attitude is within you,

Outside just acting like nothing happened acting cool.

But your inside is haunted with guilt and depressive emotions,

Don't believe? I think you already did after all that commotion.

Rap dedicated for Tristam -Talent Goes By [Dubstep] #93

You want me to be someone else,
You want me to change myself so you can live,
It won't happen again.. again.
You want me to live my life,

Thinking that I can achieve my best. Oh.

Well talent goes by,

Talent goes by.

Each of us born,

Each of us hold a heart that is warm.

Each of us was once told,

Be good and prevent the scolds.

What do you do when your'e in trouble?
Solve it yourself and think double.

Part of your talent to get through,

Tons of it tons to choose.

It'd just depend on which to use,

Cause in the end you'll succeed and not lose.

As talent goes by talent goes by~
-backs to wubs-

#1 Written By : Brenda Loh

-Rap written by Brenda Loh-

I do not own any shit. 

She gave me permission and I find this awesome.

Your mind is full of those broken memories,

the one you hate to see, and the one you dont wanna be

you turned on the radio to set your mind free

imagine you're rocking a party or a beautiful scenery

but that sad track they're playing brought you back to misery

so just turn off the radio and listen to me

The world we've livin in is too busy

its all about the fame and it's all about the money

hey like what they said no money no talk

so i break their fucking legs, see if they can walk

you see education is said to set our lives,

well look at that degree holder has nothing but fives

fives, fives billions, million, gazzilions

STOP.

he's just a janitor at a shop in Pavillion.

they say beautiful in the heart is better than the looks,

Well thats what ugly people say to make them look good,

But please don't misunderstood,

I'm not being rude,

But that's the realistic that only look for the LOOKS.

As You Were Saying, Alice? #92

Hey bitch before I say out your name,

What was it that you said?

Hmm, lied bout not knowing he has a girlfriend,

Lied bout your'e more mature than me.. oh and then.

Alice, you think he would appreciate you?

After seeing your true colours your'e just so childish, a kid acting cool.

Typical aye? I may be a nice guy but don't take me for granted,

Want to see my true colours? Your wish has been granted.

I'm not her "new boyfriend."

I'm just someone who protects every single one of my friends.

You should be shameful for not being part of my story no more,

Selfish to the core.

Your'e sad and feeling guilty? And you want me to care?

Selfish again. U don't think about others do you? Not fair.

U treat my friends like non-human beings hm?

Well I'll treat you like you don't even exist as a living being cause your'e heartless. Pfft.

Heartless people never last,

But guilt is what I want you to feel after all that fuss.

Go ahead make a drama,

Just make sure than you point out every detail of the story or you'll get your karma.

And part of your sins,

Will be me haunting you within.

Get lost from us, your'e pathetic.

Yeah i'm so immature.

How about you? Not so sure?

Need not to ask.

Cause your'e just a little girl who just deserved to die by SARS.

You still want to insult me and my buddies?

Come at me I have all day.

Fuck off, or i'll make your emotions decay.

Checkmate.

2 Girls 1 Topic About Dubstep #91

2 Girls 1 Topic about Dubstep.. THEY GOT IT WRONG.

So I was in the van,

2 girls talking about Skrillex.

Look listen,

Before I go further into distance.

Dubstep isn't "Alien" talk shit,

It's 140 BPM beat.

As I was saying Skrillex just makes you think that he rocks,

Due to the community everyone's worshipping like a God.

B please remember theres always more than his shitty Bangarang,

Tristam,Ephixa,Noisestorm,Klaypex and a bunch more.

Don't let other dubstep artist fall,

Just because of this faggot Skrillex's stall.

You might say "Why you hate him bro?"

I don't I'm saying that there are other better producers u might enjoy.So,

Look at other angles at dubstep before you talk,

Cause I love dubstep so don't make a mistake or i'll mock.

Besides from dubstep theres many more,

Drumstep,EDM,Electro,Trance,and those "alien beats" u call are BASS DROPS.

Choices #90

The meaning of life,

Every second it gives you to decide.

To go this way or that,

Both good and bad.

It'd depend on your sense,

So simple pick the right one? No think dense.

Think twice before you walk forward,

Cause every second counts, every word..

You speak of,

Everything is like a challenge no switch to turn it off.

Even now I have choices to either use this word or that word,

But in the end I know it'd end up as a poem with not much concern.

Pick it or pick it?

Fat #89 (Requested by John Yeo)

Hey man it's okay if your'e fat,

Nowadays people think that being skinny is all that.

But no i'm not saying that fat is bad,

Look at you u can use your belly to save a flying cat.

Or maybe bounce off a 100 block building without being dead,

Fart once and stop a fire like cake.

Being fat is always good,

Look at the brightside you get to store more delicious food.

Besides all these facts,

Being fat is always the best, remember that.

-John Yeo-

Brutal Slaughter #88 (Requested by Kamir)

That moment when you just lost a game,

When you just.. ah fuck this it's all the same.

Nerd rage, pissed, anger,

All bringing you infinite negativeness.

Some wants to suicide some wants to murder,

Some just wants to slaughter with vulgar.

Brutally hated ones,

Be aware of those brutal knife slaughtering cunts.  

Pizza #87 (Requested by Wai Yaen)

U tired of eating rice?

U tired of eating asian dishes that is so small in size?

THEN GET YOUR ASS OVER HERE To pizza huts,

We offer you the best pizzas made by us Asians.

We have Rice Pizza, Pork Pizza and it's all halal,

Come and give it a try by emailing us if your brain says "Pizza ko mana?"

PizzaPorkHut@derpmail.com,

What the fuck are you still WAITING FOR?!

-Wai Yaen-

Mana = Where

This was just made for pure entertainment and not to offend any races.

Intercourses #86 (Requested by Daniel)

When a boy and a girl are lonered in a room,

The first thing that comes into.

Is sex yeah no shit it's true,

Don't be shy we all understand it's cool.

The boy eager to stuff his hotdog down the bread,

While the girl is ready to leak out disgusting mayonnaise.

Why did I even start this poem,

Some dumb request by my friend Daniel.

I'm stopping here.

Rofl.

Games #85 (Requested by Leong)

When all girls do their boring shopping,

U can't expect a boy to wait cause it's boring.

So what do they do?

They drive and ditch their gf's back home,

Sit on the couch and turn on their "BOX OF DOOM."

Yeah that's what all girls say bout boys,

Those awesome gadgets that brings you to a new fantasy that is more than a toy.

More achievements than waiting your girl,

24/7 headshotting like a sir.

Well too late,

Some girls just call boys dota gamers.

Hey bitch please, dota is just too mainstream,

Final Fantasy KingdomHearts COD LoL HoN, Etc.

Game is a part of life,

Well for boys that is.. PSYCH.

Food (Brenda's Request) #84

Food.

It is the only thing that everyone appreciates.

Without food,

You would've been skinny from head to foot.

From Italian Pasta to Asian Delights,

What else more can you ask for than these in your sights.

Puddings ah I love them,

Curry laksas and all those perfect shit DAMN.

I just want all of them inside my fridge,

Every second I would open it and search and leave no food ditched.

What are you waiting for?

Get your ass to my house and enjoy food bro ;D

Haters LOOK HERE x3

To all haters.

U can call me immature, go ahead,

No please just continue din't you see what I just said?

Just so you remember you keep telling yourself your'e not lame,

Cause living in that lie of yours to cover who you are is the same.

I'm not mature yeah,

That's my lie now let rage flow through you as they pass by.

In the end,

Your'e just a pathetic kid that decides to stand.

Existence #83

What if I said I din't exist,

None of this was real like this.

Our kiss,

Wasn't real at all but just a faint bliss.

Act one,

Missing beneath the Sun.

Act two,

Confused with no clues.

If only none was real,

No one would've been killed.

But those Dark ones wouldn't hide,

As the Lightened ones wouldn't be by our side.

So if both existed,

Then it's existence.

Balanced.

Heartbeats

Every person with a heart has their moments;

And when that person feels it,

The heart beats with haste.

-Dedicated-

-Drawn in English Class-

-20minutes-

Intensity #82

The intensity slowly builds,

Quiet passes by your feel.

Cheeks blushing,

Both staring.

Each individual mind thinking what will happen next,

Who will make the next move to keep both intact.

"Hey. We're both blushing." smiles the girl,

The boy said nothing but continued blushing with red,

"I love you too." finally he said.

YAY hugs for everyone ^ w ^

The Limit #81

But why did this happen?

But why did that happen?

Why.

Why did all of this happen?

Confused and messed,

Surrenders and descends.

Lost in all the mess,

Saving and helping, trying his best.

Reached the limit,

He just can't take it.

Overly tried in what he can accomplish,

Tired as ever he is crying.

"Why does.." question marks filled in each corner,

His mind blank like it's lonered.

Slowly losing vision he falls,

Thinking that he just is filled with flaws.

But all of us know,

He did his best to save the rest.

Afraid Of Decisions #80

He tries not to,

He decides to not do.

Why isn't it simpler he thinks,

Her, he sinks.

Wonders how much longer does it take,

To let her know that he was the right decision to make.

Patiently he waits,

Hoping she'll ask him cause he is shy and afraid.

Soar Away #79

I want to have wings,

And fly out of what I call "reality."

Into the skies,

As I remember your deep blue eyes.

It's over I'm gone,

Soaring through the clouds, lost.

Finally I can remain myself in the least,

Nothing else matters than a simple sight of blank bliss.

SoarAway#

The Price Of Freedom #78

The price of freedom,

Ever wondered why you can't see them?
Cause they're free of everything,

Wandering searching for a person to know within.

No matter how hard your life is,

In the end you'll know you will succeed.

That is the price,

Filling never-ending joy to both you and your life.

Scars Of Friendship #77

Breaking up isn't the one always giving heart scars,

Telling ourself "Sorry I did this." like if you must.

Everyone tries to heal them,

But they know that it's impossible even if they say they can.

Friends are yet the best to have,

Giving you the moment when your'e sad.

Advicing and understanding each part of your problem,

In the end you understand them.

But, sometimes it backfires,

Friends gives you scars and that's when you think "True friends? Liar."

No it's neither's fault,

Misunderstandings does get into ways like water and salt.

Each thinking into their perspective,

In the end they fall into their friendship's deceive.

The sad moments within friends are Scars of Friendship.

Blissful Dismiss #76

Sorry to bring this of me to you,

Your'e probably confused.

Well let's just say I can be filled with emotions,

I let them control me when I want them to cause commotions.

Don't worry I'm fine,

Just get yourself ready when you see myself turn into this next time.

-Apologies to Angel-

Kix #75

Watching you filled with disgrace,

Laughing at you trying to get all of it to no trace.

Watching you filled with shame,

"Please.." you begged... sadly no one came.

We all already know who you are,

Your past isn't that far.

Even though your'e sorry,

I know that past of yours will appear with glory.

Once again I'll be there,

Hoping to put your name to disgrace once again.

Fuck you Kix.

You Don't Know Me #74

Ever wondered the other side of me?

Something else less desired to what I want to be.

Hard to explain remains quiet,

Easy to express remains silent.

Always felt this weird darkness within,

Shimmering wanting to burst open unseen.

Infecting the rest with sorrowful unknowns,

The devil part of my remains it's cold.

Killing everything I loved,

Cursing each that deserves.

Filling them with fear and tears,

Coming slowly he appears.

Nothing else matters,

Than a sadistic moment.

A mixture of both sorrow and a surge of rage,

Fearless from both insane and afraid.

Kix #73

Ohoh you think you deserve a forgiveness?

Think again, you don't know how much I hated you for two YEARS AGO.

Everyday I swear about you, I curse,

Hoping you'll leave ASHLYN, BELLE, AND THE REST ALONE.

Kix, hi, you want to explore my world?

I'm a devil when I'm not happy :( U want to try?

SHUT THE FUCK UP and just cry.

What you DID. And what you DONE to all the girls,

Dino. Lyn. Belle. U dare harm their emotions with surge,

Telling your'e a boy and go all sexual? Lmfao. That's sad,

One thing you do have,

"Immature mind."

Yeah my poems doesn't rhyme but want to know what rhymes inside my head?
Killing you and hoping your'e dead.

U want to try my mental rage?

It's like a devil trapt within a cage.

Hoping just to escape,

Tearing up all your senses ON YOUR FACE.

Kingdom Hearts : Prototype

Gave myself a theme.

Prototype.

And.

Kingdom Hearts?

WOMBO COMBO.

V

Don't steal it :c <3

Your Light Is Just a LIE.

I drew this with all my emotions gathered fully,

so that you know HOW MUCH I HATED YOU 

SINCE THEN.