Forfeiting Love #23

Me and my complicated life,

Us , we , our depressive inner strive.

Our love you can say , "He doesn't care."

But I do , I just sigh what am I kidding,

I'm just a complicated teenager who is still breathing,

Telling the world that he is innocent,

Apologizing to you, no difference.

I guess I'm just the same as the rest,

Always making love such a big mess,

Sorry for wasting your time,

Putting your heart into mine.

Slap Me If U Want To.

We Are Afraid Of.. #22

We are afraid of the dark, 

because of what is in the unknown.

We are afraid of dying, 

because of losing our loved we once hold.

We are afraid of crying, 

because we want to stay strong.

We are afraid to suicide,

because we already know it's wrong.

We are afraid to confess our love to people,

because of rejection.

We are afraid to sing, 

because it's hard to show odd expressions.

We are afraid of..

-Ben

Update #2

..

WHY YU PUT THAT AS YOUR PROF PIC?!
I THOUGHT U WERE DEAD.

I FEEL LIKE A DUMBASS NOW.

U..

MADE

ME

SO

WORRIED

FOR LIKE

A

WEEK.

MY GOD.

AND U TELL ME YOU WANT TO DIE?

WOW.

Okays chill Ben.

DerpDerpDerpDerp.

Next time, just tell me your shit so I can help -.-

And do stop putting "OH LOOK IM DEAD." kind of profile pictures.

Glad your'e okay.

.

You , Gone , Me , Sad #21

Woots I found the missing poem ^w^!

It was in between my exercise books :x

Anyways here it is~

It's for you.

********************

When reality turns sadistic,

You will just keep telling yourself,

"Please...tell me all of this is just some trick."

Finding reality less easy to believe,

Telling yourself it's just a dream.

Apparently things are not what you think it seems,

We just have to accept the truth that we hid beneath,

I'm sorry but I have to let go,

Pity your story that was left half untold,

Leaving your death to me just unknown.

Update #1

Hey guys i'm back c:

It's been like 2 months since i'm gone aye?

Using Scottish words reminds me of Kylie. 

Alot of stuff happened between these two months, It's just

so shocking.

Din't know that my "sister" would pass away.

Might well just let go.. :l

Anyways I will be back to update my blog as usual

but don't expect it to be a daily poem/drawing shit.

I might post daily updates or maybe just not.

Still it's active so yeah c:

"Bruised and Scarred"

This song reminds me of her and my feelings atm..

"Someone please sick this lovesick melody~"

This sentence makes me wanna not let go ,

it's so fitted into my story at the moment.

I lost one of my poems i wrote :/

It was written for Kylie. Sigh , my bad.

I'll write a new one for you tomorrow kay?

Anyways i'm going , it's late.

School tomorrow :x

-Ben

:l I Miss You.

Din't expect you to leave, 

All of a sudden in time's drift, 

Kylie why? You.. I miss.

 The years , months and days we talked, 

And now i'm just facing such a big drop. 

People say "Cheer up shes just an internet friend."

 But I CANT. 

Because u were more than what they say,

I think of you as my own sister, 

That one that I can't let go and her brother keeps saying 'I miss her..."

 How did all of this end this way?

 I can't face that your'e no longer here anymore.. after that day.. 

I , your brother, will pray

, My memories with you will always remain.

R.I.P Kylie.