Thursday 29 March 2012

Confident Saves The World #34

When you least expect the best,
Confident rises to clean the mess.
Giving all you got to end all,
Encouragement calls,
As you continue to show them whose boss.
Depending on how you roll,
it's all about seeing how the trick unfolds.
Lies , deceives , fear ,
These things that lead you from anger to tears.
It's alright it'd be fine,
Cause nothing ever stays in sight.
There's always a limit in each,
Patience and wait as the time ticks.
Sooner or later you'll realise that your'e further ahead,
No longer feeling down dead.

Wednesday 28 March 2012

Liars eat Shit #33 (Quad-naza)

Whenever one speaks the truth,
One just turns to disapprove.
As if one lied,
As if they got fooled,
By the disapproved truth,
Fades away just as they may,
You now just don't even matter,
Cause your'e just a shitty liar.

Suicide #32 (Quad-naza)

Dropping off the cliff,
Looking how I miss...
Your jump, your fate,
All now is gone in seconds, i'm late...
To stop the world from gasping,
Why'd you leave,
I remember.. our first kiss.
So sorry that I made you do this,
My only part in life that started to shatter,
All my memories in my mind began to flutter,
As I, my, first tear drops down,
Deep down, no sound,
Please don't go~
The fucking sad moments just have to pass so slow..

Whern shes cared #31 (Quad-naza)

When she cry,
He closes his eyes,
And pets her gently on the head,
"Silly girl, cheer up,"
Gentle kiss , that feeling she once missed.
As she falls down, deep down, no sound.
Surrounded by his aura that faded most tears,
Killing her fears,
She then lays on his chest,
Falling asleep down into bliss, out the mess.

Looking like a fool without you #30 (Quad-naza)

I once said my life changed,
Deep inside still that sadness stays,
Nothing to feel, no joy remains,
Why'd you turn off the beat,
My heartbeat, that once rose back from the deep.
You promised all the conditions,
And now you run away from my emotions.
Trying to maintain the balance of hope,
But hope just doesn't exist in my story that was once told.
I don't miss neither hate,
I just want to smile back up and face my fate.
It was all thanks to you,
My laughter, my joy, all now gone, I just look like a fool,
All because of "without you"...
You lit me up once but I fell back down,
Cause I took you for granted, now let's all frown.
Apologies, depressions , relationships,
I just want my story to become how it once used to be.

You were one of the longest I've ever held on.

Update #6

Poop the world! Ben has ditched his
blog and went inside the portal of
"school"afication. I'm joking. Lol i'm just
been lately lazy to post stuff but
I do have the poems written and prepared :P
So here you go guys! Quad-naza! (Bonanza my ass)
Four fresh made poems related to my
past years i've once felt before and now
again.. 

Wednesday 21 March 2012

Update #5

When I said you "Lighten Upped My Heart"
I mean't it.
So badly.
It's been 14months but 
things changed cause of this.
I don't miss you.
I miss the memories with you.
I hope you still kept that drawing I gave you,
I cried while drawing that, knowing that finally someone
understood me in my life.
I talk cause of you,
you gave me guts to do so.
I smile cause of you,
you gave me joy to do so.
I scream cause of you,
you gave me the best year i've ever had.
I shouldn't had.
You shouldn't ask.
I shouldn't accept.
You shouldn't apologize.
I shouldn't cry.
Or should I?

; - ;


Sunday 18 March 2012

600 Words Poem Challenge By Z Xuan || Theme : Love #29

People come across certain emotions,
Only with them, we have a life like a simulation.
There is unexplainable feelings in our soul,
Only our emotions can unfold.
Love is one of the simple complicated,
Can only be felt by the unknown sense,
One of the few emotions that may get intense.
It's like a virus spreading in our life,
But it's not something we can push it aside,
It's something we tend to come through over life's time.
Mostly it starts in our friendship,
Turning and evolving it into a relationship.
We tend to take it for granted,
Making ripped hearts un-mended.
Breaking every heart when we promised not to,
The victim will just have to overcome breakthrough.
We fear love cause of rejection,
Stress , confusion , depression.
Mostly sadistic, loss of friendship,
Losing the part of social we thought we could keep.
Faling to jump over the sadness by a leap,
Falling to the heart's scar down deep.
Some try to avoid it,
Some ignore love's every one bit.
Sadly every one of us went through love,
Some even fell for it's high above.
Love is innocent so its fine,
Don't blame anyone even yourself when you get a cut inside,
Like I said its innocent,
A rare feeling occuring or emotion.
Just try it for once,
No regrets unless you love those cunts,
There is people with no heart.
Just playing with love and ending it as they may,
Fake love , day after day.
But one day, their misused emotion will end at bay.
Being the victim of love is a risk,
It's just up to you to approach or forget in the mist.
Telling someone you like him or her is typical,
Once you get experienced you'll do it radical.
Over using it too can cause numb,
Doesn't matter, both the victim and host will get it after a large sum.
So approach it wisely with caution aswell,
Like I said certain people misuse it well.
Don't do stupid things when you breakup,
It'd just push your life out without any doubt.
Suicide , murder , kill,
Just because of jealous ending up filled with guilt.
It's okay, sometimes let go and move on,
Don't say your life is miserable since the day you were born,
Finding someone who loves you more will last,
Not forever though , since time passes fast.
Love isn't a must,
It's neither an entertainment lust.
It balances both emotion in a deep quarrel,
Positive joy into negative sorrow.
Ends with sadness as always,
Causing the feeling to decay.
Once it's gone,
Imagine a life with no love , no more.
Balance your heart by not overloading it's core,
Neither making yourself lose it, dropping it to the deepest floor.
This emotion like I said is complicated to think,
But it comes naturally in a simple eye blink.
Control your emotions to balance love,
Once your'e there , you'll find that person, your true beloved.
Love's existence has gave us purification in our hearts,
New life paths cause of it's destiny cards.
I hope you guys won't love for just the fun part,
Please love it as if it is, not a bad fart.
It too has it's limit but rarely reached,
Takes forever to break the rules in love cause of our heart is filled with it's rich.
It only can be found when you seek,
Finding it is like a priceless gift once you reach it's peak,
Sadly we just don't appreciate how valuable it is,
It's peculiar when you think deep,
Understanding one word , "love" , is powerful,
Some just say "Love are for fools."
Ironic to them, it's not what they think,
All they will get is a mixture of heartless ink.
I wish you were still part of my life,
You are still always on my mind,
I just want to turn back time.

607 Words

Thursday 15 March 2012

Music #1

Hey guys, if you guys want to know
what I usually listen during the week i'd post it
here and you might like it aswell.
This week I kept repeating this dubstep (Hardstyle) podcast.

[Hardstyle] Jack Of Sound Mix (Fusion Records)


[Dubstep] - Day One - For The Stars

If you enjoyed these videos, go to their channel and subscribe for
more of it :] Its worth it. And you can download certain "free releases" songs
of Monstercat in their description in videos. U can too buy
their albums if you really love em so much :'3

Alright bye guys.

-Ben


Teemo and Shaco ILY #28

Hey guys i'm been recently enjoying my 1 week
holiday so not posting much. Sorry.
But still if you request me something, i'd do it 100% :]
Anyways i've been playing LoL (League of Legends)
and RoTMG (Realm of The Mad God)
more than my typical Ameba Pico/Poems x)
Ahaha but seriously you should try these if your'e a gamer.
Anyways i'ma write a poem/rap for LoL my current top 2 game.
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Teemo you say weak,
But Lux's light can't even seek.
I run I hide,
My passive is too godlike.
My poison kills you without mercy,
So i'll give you a 5 second time to run ,hurry,.
Think before u mid with Teemo,
This ain't a dream yo.
AP , AD , Hybrid i'm just beast,
Karthus just can't even kill me.
Blitzcrank just had so much problems with grabs,
All hes ult's are just like tofu zaps.
AP Shaco , you mad bro?
Jokes on you when you chase or follow.
Lead you to my box trap house,
Get a kill without any sound.
Why so serious?
Ur brush check skills are just not much of a curious.
U chase, I decieve, 
I win.
Victory.
GG.com
(First time doing this might be a little bad)

x) Nerdtastic.


Teemo The Swift Scout

Shaco The Demon Jester

 If you guys want more LoL stuff like this
i'd write. Just post your champion on the cbox c: <3

Tuesday 13 March 2012

Update #4

The songs I changed to dubsteps :P
Sorry I know it doesn't suites my blog but
I DONT CARE 8DD
I love dubsteps and you should too c: <3

Monday 12 March 2012

Endless Memories #27

Memories yet the best,
Sadness here but your thoughts still there,
Your mind it blinds,
The reality away from the "memory" sign.
Only in reality we find..
Memories that are worth a zillion dime.
We , us , all , bind,
Our memories , thoughts , joy inside.
As we flew though one by one like a kite in the sky,
The happiness , sadness , hatred , love all inside our mind.
Those memories worth keeping,
Those dreams worth dreaming,
Those times worth passing,
Are just yet the best moments we ever had.

Monday 5 March 2012

The Feeling Of "Panic" In Love #26

I did badly I so did,
You near , me , my heartbeat.
I just went panic,
Not knowing what to do,
Just watching the vanishing moon,
I feel bad for liking you,
I feel bad for my ex,
I feel bad for myself.
Same problems us boys has dwelt.
Just want to tell you that some of us,
We don't mean it,
We just want to race to tell you who loves who first.
And me, now, I like you,
Your'e cute,
You just make me go mute,
That moment you appear is so sooth,
I just felt as if my problems was just gone,
I wish I could talk to you more,
As if today , this year, I can't.
I'm laughing at myself now,
Looking how badly I did at this poem,
It doesn't rhyme , it doesn't fit ,
I'm probably panicking again,
My heart's beat is going insane.


Saturday 3 March 2012

Kingdom Hearts Poem #25

Kingdom Hearts Poem


Persona : Sora
Receiver : Kairi


Boom there it goes the limit break
Gotta say theres no time to hesitate
Gotta slay everything that gets in my way
Just make it to her before its too late

Trinity force unleash whats inside
All i gotta do is just give it a try
I see heartless all around left and right
Bring down the darkness, its conquered by light

Kairi you know that were two in one
Just by our true love this battles been won
Every single time that i look at the sun
Brings memories of the beach and the fun

Its like the world has fallen on my shoulders
Baby dont forget everything that i told you
No matter what happens i know that ill find you
Please give me time to make it through the trials

Oh there is goes i just unleashed
Two keyblades this fantasy
Feel the power now coursing through me
Im collecting hearts its my destiny

Unlocked the door and now to be free
A whole new journey through reality
Im passing by just to tell you hi
Oh look at the time gotta go goodbye

Broken hearts lonely tears
Walkin solo all these years
Look at fate it brought me here
Take my love im truly here

Lets hold hands and have no fear
Let me wipe away your tears
Roses are red and violets are blue
Kairi you know that i love you

Thinking of you where ever you are
Even tho were worlds and miles apart
Its my love from start to end
Remember that in me youve got a true friend

I have hope that ill see you again
Even while these heartless i must fend
Time clicks by and i must fly
Ill find you by grace i know one day

Friday 2 March 2012

Life Segments #24

Forgotten people,
Are yet the best to be remembered.
The sad moments you had,
Were just you losing the joy you could've captured.
Finding the seek,
Is just a waste of time,
Don't seek, just go for it,
No ones going to stop you to gain your "wants" in your live.
Don't let people bring you down,
Or give yourself the saddest frown.
Darkness is just part of the negative,
Think straight , think passive.
Sometimes you feel depressed,
It's fine just cry you'd feel you've confessed,
The problem you faced was just a tiny mess.
All words and wisdoms set together,
Is yet the best unite you'd ever get,
In life.

Update #3

Hey guys !
A little update for yall here,
i've recently created a DeviantArt account so
my future drawings will be posted there. If you don't
know what DeviantArt is , search it up!
Skilled artists' drawings are all over there , it's amazing + jawdropping.
Here's the link to my DA account and gallery c:
Enjoy !


-Ben

Thursday 1 March 2012

Collaboration Drawings #1

Collaboration Drawing 
w/ BL.MM aka Brenda & Ben

VIVANT means Alive in French.

Sneak peak of our next project.