R.I.P Ameba Pico

There goes my fantasy world,
A getaway from all my stress.
So here I am boys and girls,
Ameba Pico I will miss you all.
Ashlyn ain't just an ordinary friend,
Melon is your daily laughter full of surprises.
Chewie where have you been?
Mayra why'd you ditch us all and Lyn :c
Dino how'd you get out of my buddy list?
You all are the ones that I will truely miss.
Serena hay you still have me on facebook >_>
Mitzy change yourself and don't care how others look at you,
Light I hope you're alright there in New York bro,
Gina hate me for my looks? I don't care though.
Zye has always been that grammar king,
Jello we've been through so many hilarious things,
Sica you pwet go die in a hole
No seriously it was just a joke c:
Neji promise me you'll grow up and marry Jad
Blake your drawings are fab
Berry don't stop being a rebel
Candii Jessie Ray you guys aswell
Maki and Makio sitting on a tree <3
Aika remember I'm ben D:< !
And I'm your one and only kitty bff! \(* ^ *)/ <-- Aika's Win face
Star has a fetish for gays and bi's
Dickweed I hope you're alright :/
Bear i'm sorry for the things I've done,
Alright I guess december's the month.

So YEAH :C Miss you all <3

Here you stand alone,

That one boy's story left untold.

People think you're just a fool,

While they laugh thinking they're so cool.

Walk away from distractions,

Strong as ever by every fraction.

No one else can change you,

It's all up to what you want to do,

In the end it's just the truth.

Stay headstrong,

and prove them wrong.

Rawr ,

Although I don't know your name .

Although I don't know you in real life.

Although I just met you .

I just hope you learn something before you pass . . .

You did this before and why repeat the same mistake ?

It's not worth it Rawr .

Even if it was worth it ,

It's worth what ? An innocent life ?

No it's not worth it at all .

Why didn't you let others help you ?

Why do you keep rejected others aid ?

I know , life's tough .

Especially when you're the downfall in your own story .

I have felt it .

No one treated me as a friend for 7 years ,

My parents divorced when I turned 12 ,

I had problems communicating with others ,

Others think me as a weird kid ,

Looked down by my relatives .

Yes ,

it is sad .

But , I knew that there will always be someone out there

somewhere ,

who would be the opposite unlike others .

Meanwhile ,

I need to be strong and try to be someone .

I had always wanted to smile ,

To be human . . .
To feel emotions .

Whenever people say "hi" to me ,

I get this rush of happiness in my heart ,

cause I was realized by someone .

I had always wanted to mix in

be in a crowd ,

laugh together and not someone who is laughed at .

But no , I knew none of these could happen

unless I told myself to be strong and breakthrough .

When there is a way in

there is always a way out .

Same goes to problems ,

there's always solutions .

And suicide is not a way to solve it .

It just shows you , yourself , that you given up 

and you decided to fall .

And I want you to know that ,

You don't deserve to be hated or ignored ,

you're an amazing person , fun to talk with despite we just met .

Please , tell yourself to be strong .

God , please give her a second chance .

The human mind is such a complicated creation,
Use it well or use it for destruction.
In the end it's still used for own's satisfaction.
How much do we have to suffer,
Us humans being monsters, 
From time to time,

Until the day one says goodbye.

We're all mostly just full of self,

It's always us and nothing else.

Trust and belief?

They don't exist anymore in this world we live in.

Shame isn't it?

Flipping these pages of ours ,
Wished upon a million stars .
Didn't expect us to come this far ,
Nobody needs to know who we are .
You caught me by surprise ,
Now I'm falling deep into your eyes .
This is our story ,
Where our happiness grow together ,
What if we lasted forever ?
Wouldn't that be heaven ?
Falling down from so high ,
Climbing up from so low ,
Perfect is not what we need to show ,
Loving you is what I just want you to know .

Sweetdreams. <3

I'm sick , lovesick .

That cute smile you make ,

Those bright eyes of yours on your face .

Hugging my pillow every night ,

Hoping that your'e alright .

Reading back our conversations ,

Telling myself you'll be back sooner or later .

Sometimes I just don't have the patience to wait ,

So I just go back to bed ,

Hoping you'll be there when I'm awake .

I miss you .

Come back sooner , mkay ? 

<3

For my girl.

<3

Just cry it all out,

Just let it all out.

I'll shout with you if you want to shout.

If your'e afraid I'll be your light.

Just call me and I'll hug you tight.

In the end of the night,

I swear it'd be alright.
Just close your tired eyes, tonight.

R.E.E.F

Meet R.E.E.F (Robotical Electronic Exo-skeletal Fish)

It is powered through either sunlight or the minerals that it chews up through it's mouth.

As you can see, it's left claw is connected to it's mouth. Therefore, the minerals eaten 

will be transfered to it's left claw, powering it up with strength. 

It's right claw has a different way to be powered. It's tail acts like a propeller 

when it is underwater. The right claw is connected to the propeller by a skeletal tube.

Anything that is sliced up by the propeller will be transported through the tube to the

right claw. Therefore powering up the right claw.

The propeller too acts like an accelerator when it's underwater and not just

a defensive weapon. 

The cannons around it's claws are charged up through sunlight and will glow brightly

in the night. The bright glows too tells us that R.E.E.F's cannons are fully charged. 

It fires up to a 525 Celsius of heat directly burning through it's target. 

Firing up to ten times will fully remove all it's solar charges.

The 180 degree looking fins behind it's right claw will act as a fin when underwater or

a pair of hind legs when on land. When underwater, it will compress itself together therefore

acting as a fin. When in land, it will detach itself forming slowly a pair of hind legs.

The claw beside the cannons acts as a secondary claw when moving in land.

The "c" mechanical looking behind it's neck acts as a "Mechanical arm". It can

extend itself up to 10 meters to repair R.E.E.F when damaged. 

The blades in front of R.E.E.F's jaw are called "Metal Feelers". It acts like an

antenna and uses heatwaves around it's surrounding to sense nearby preys and predators.

Used mostly to target it's desired target to accurately shoot it's cannons.

I have to say, this is one of my few proudest Mech drawings I've ever drawn

this year. <3 I love it.

Xiera, Silence Of The Skies

2nd Dragon I've ever drawn.

<3

Just a little song-poem I wrote in class :b

Time flows , so slow.
When it's it going to end,
Sitting alone, in a room so cold.

So hated , so unknown.

When will this end,

I swear, I just can't stand , being alone!

What time is it?

I just want to sleep,

Close my eyes and just dream deep.

Just want to let you know,

How much cuts do you want me to hold?

Just let go

That's what you said

But it's so ironic

So stop coming back over again!

Has anyone told you how adorable you are?

Or perhaps how understanding you are.

I'm glad I gave you that chance,

I'm sorry if I've made you sad in the past,

If you need someone to care,

I'll always be there.

I remember how you said "at least it'd last",

I'll make sure it'd last forever,

Just embrace your heart with mine together.

Myself

That's me.

I do not fear..

I do not fear death,

I fear the ones I will forget.

I do not fear sorrow,

I fear the ones affected within it's hollow.

I do not fear being alone,

I fear being left unknown.

I do not fear the earth,

I fear those who lie within this world.

Losing

Losing i know how it feel

But it doesn't mean revenge nor kill

take a deep breathe and chill

Give it another shot as long you have the will

Giving up is always the fall

Prevent it by keeping your faith strong

Stand up despite the fact others say

Move on and ignore them dismay

Some still or always will be there for you

Depends on which path you will now choose.

Cyno

Cyno.

Sanctuary

Sanctuary <3

Personally one of my few proudest drawings *-*<3

Speed Art #2 - Happy Birthday Mimi c: !

Sorry if I couldn't record fully :l My camera has a limit of 20minutes

and battery dies off easily :x

Mind wishing her a Happy Birthday in the video's comment section c:?

Thanks! 

Paper Speed Art #3 - Cyrotherapic

Lies

Time after time each step you take

No progress no movement pace

Everyday is just the same

Lying just to make a delay

Nevertheless just day after day

Acting like your lie will never decay

Just like putting up a fake display

In the end you get the same phrase

Said to your face

Can't you try and retake

The lies you've said

Can't be rephrased

Hated is now what you taste

Whatever it takes

You'll still have to face

But perhaps just in case

You might want to return to base

Cause we're about to show you dismay

It's best you now behave

Speed Art #1

Short Sketch

2:45minute video  of me finishing my sketch (Indompte) :x

Actually took 13minute just din't record the earlier stages cause

my teacher was in class. Dx

Ben Plays Minecraft (Hardcore) #1

So i've been getting back into Minecraft lately..

(Ew nerd gtfo my screen!)

Mhm. And I decided to record myself

surviving Hardcore Mode technically a speedrun aswell.

Speedrunning as in no derping off..

(I failed c:)

Hardcore Mode = 

Death will cause the world to be deleted automatically and no respawn(s).

Anyways here it is.

I'll commentate on the next part.

Got slightly lazy and decided to just drop in an dubstep album mix <3

I highly suggest you skip 20minutes into the video.

Within the 20minutes are just preparations for the mining phase.

Indompté, Keeper of Nature

Meet Indompté, Keeper of Nature (Means Untamed in French)

Final Fantasy got into my mind and I missed those

epic boss battle and epic background music <3

So I sketched it out within 13minutes.

FF <3

Anyways since I play League of Legends aswell.

I suggested this as a champion and here are the skillsets.

http://forum.lol.garena.com/showthread.php?22737-Indompte-Keeper-of-Nature&p=272157#post272157 

Passive : Sinister Corruption

Indompte's next basic attack will Fear the target hit for the next 1 second. Cannot be reactivated to the same target for the next 7 seconds. If the target has more health than Indompte, that target will be Feared for 1.5 seconds.


Skills :
Q : Airborne Roots (Cooldown : ???) (Mana Cost : ???)

The target hit will be knocked airborne for 0.5/0.8/1.3/1.6/2.0 seconds dealing (DMG : ???), nearby targets will be slowed by 20%/25%/30%/35%/40%.


W : Ariel Absorption (Cooldown : ???) (Mana Cost : ???)

Indompte spikes out roots in a small area and leeches max hp of enemies in that area, each enemy reduces the 
percentage absorbed down to a cap.



E : Spike Thorns (Cooldown : ???) (Mana Cost : ???)

Passive: Attacks leave 'thorns' on enemies, and stacks up to 6 stacks. on the 7th attack the stacks implode to deal damage in an area around the inflicted target. Inflicted target gets dealt 50% of damage. (DMG : ???)

Active : Sends out 'thorns' in a cone shape area for the next 8 seconds. 


R : Wither To Death (Cooldown : ???) (Mana Cost : ???)

Indompte channels for 3 seconds and fires 'thorns' into the air through his left hand dealing (DMG : ???) and slowing targets within the channeling. The longer the channeling, the further the 'thorns' fly into the air. Targets afflicted by the 'thorns' will bleed for the next 5 seconds and heal Indompte for each 1% of mana Indompte is missing.


Lore : -coming soon-

Ben's got a Hater

LOLOL.

So I have this so called "enemy" when I was

in primary school. And I've always been

"hated" by the class. Therefore I have no friends.

I wonder why hmm..

Anyways I found this in his 3 years ago blog

writing about how "awesome" I am.

c; Enjoy

-nobenhaterswereharmedduringthemakingofthispost-

Eh boy. You use to call me girly and stuff.

Uhm, i'm different now bro.

I can rip you apart with words by far you joined the

cheerleading squad as a boy.

Pathetic lil bitch aren't you.

My primary life (7-12 years old)

no friends was cause of you gossiping about me.

Thank you I have to say. 

I've realised more things than you've ever expect.

My family divorce situation , my life, my socialization with others.

Experienced through sorrow.

I remember everything now.

You gossiped about me, ruining my life in my primary school,

making others think i'm a "weirdo". 

Anyways, nice seeing this post.

Sorry?

How about no. I hold grudges to those who really asked for it.

c:

Low Effect

I din't expect a low-ink pen I used

could create something like this :x

New effect found C':

Literally spamming the no ink lines over and over

until you get a blurry yet clear effect o u o;

Sorry bad camera quality!

Uhm, I shall call this le Low Effect c:

Cheapskate effect I guess x)

\(* ^*)/ F**k You Camera #3

\(* ^*)/  <-- Aika's for the win face. LOL.

Nervous Advice #2

And suddenly. Ben goes out of topic.

Part 1

Getting nervous. 

Part 2

Derp Vlogs #1

 Me talking nervously :]

Part 1

Part 2

Seriously i'm going to do more of these LOL.

It's fucking fun P: 

I'll do it slightly more onto a topic and maybe

draw c:?

#118

Here I lie

Where I've first began

The same place you've once been in

A world yet no one existed

How long has it been

How much I've seen

It's time to stop and rest

A step forward aside the mess

Yet to exist when you don't see

How much I've missed 

Your blue eyes, your gentle kiss

Nothing else matters now
Just disappear by bliss
And leave me with peace

A Short Poem Story #117

Just trying out something different for once.

Turning a story into a short poem perhaps :] ?

A sad one that is.

;A; enjoy.

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He wakes up remembering

Remembering the crying

Familiar with the place

Being alone every night

He knows that it's not alright

Seeing a note on the fridge

Decoding each sentence

His eyes leaks his heart burns

Now he sees where this is going

All alone in the kitchen

Slightly wimping

Misplaced feelings

Emotions peeling

He puts on his shoes

Walking as he reminds himself

Oh, what a terrible news

Hand holding a bouquet of flowers

He kneels down her grave

Knowing that at least now she is safe

Looking above the skies

"I'm here" he cries

Below the skies this is where she lies

He knows it's best now to leave it all aside

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Update #15

Guys this thing isn't working well.

I'm going to have to shut down this project :/

Why am I doing this you might ask.

First i'm pretty much too busy to bother and update it daily.

Second i'm getting no feedback at all. No point doing it well.

Don't worry. Will be updating still just not daily c:

I hope you'll understand.

Contact me if you have any objections throughout this shutdown :l

Friday Poem #2 : Underestimated? + Drawing

Feel those veins burning

Slowly yet angrily turning

A beast, a monster

Done being called a small little girl

You know you've done so much

Time to let go all sadness and such

One by one with their opinions

Telling how pathetic you are

U won't stop since you came so far

Time to show who you really are

Destroy what is left under the eyes of the sun

Let them die by the pride of your vengeance

Show them what is pain 

Show them what you meant when you said.. 

Show them their sorrow 

Show them that there is no tomorrow

.        .        .

Showed them all

Nothing left 

One by one slowly falls

Cold blooded hands

Was that satisfying?

Destruction ,rage and fury

So much to hate

So much to face

It's all gone now

Nothing left but one stiff heartbeat sound.

.          .          .

Drawing Themed

Have you ever hated being looked down? Perhaps underestimated? 

Show them who you really are... 

Deep within.

Wednesday Drawing #2 : Old Forms

So.. before I got to such a stage in my drawing.

Here's what they were all like before I advanced myself :x

Tuesday Showcase #2

Today I will be showcasing Brenda Loh's drawing and arts that

i've selected. She is my schoolmate and top 1 student and still

a very good artist xD

Hm not much to add but do enjoy her drawings c:

Her blog : She said it's dead :P

Monday Poem #2 : Tried

What I have been through

People I have met

Different stories I had never expect

Maybe just perhaps

One to another each held a hand

I know that we know

What we've all been through

Together we will

Directions of perspectives we sealed

Emotions we felt and tasted

Tears we cried for

Happiness nor joy

But we tried to fight

Because we know that we did our best

And now it's time to leave the rest

Breathe out those hatred and let go

Knowing the fact that we despite the foul

Tuesday Showcase #1

This is Leong Jia Hui's artwork. She does alot of

manga based art and here she picked two :P

This is our collab art. I did the background she did the person.

Her own drawing.

She does her drawings neatly and no smudges.

It seems like she printed it but no she draws it herself.

Update : I'm sorry for not updating recently especially my poems 

i'll be having exam for the next 2 weeks so bear with me. I'll try

to post if I can.

Sunday Drawing Video #1

I'm sorry that I can't edit it. I couldn't convert the MOV. file 

to my laptop and after trying a millions time of conversion.

It worked. And the converted version was in bad quality.

So I cannot add background music etc and had to upload

directly from my camera usb. Sorry for the missing footage at Part 1,

my camera decided to die off halfway recording :/

Bad way to start off my project but here you go.

Part 1

Part 2

Full Drawing

Friday Poem #1 : Freedom

Ever wondered why

Why can't we fly

What do we seek up high

Not much except the shine

This presence of blissful light, so bright

What do you feel

Do you feel the breeze, the chills

Everything just disappears out from sight

This my friend is the Freedom's might

Wednesday Drawing #1 : Disturbed

                         S o m e

  p e o p l e 

                   j u s t 

w o n ' t  

l e a v e              

                      y o u 

           a l o n e..

Update #14

URGENT UPDATE.

Now for those who draws and write poems.

I'll give you a chance to showcase your artworks in my blog.

If your'e interested comment below and tell me what you do.

So far the ones who joined are my schoolmates.

IMPORTANT : Send me your artwork through email and if you do get accepted

be sure to keep yourself updated in drawing since i'll be posting them every Tuesday and Thursday.

My Email : artillusionate@hotmail.com

THANK YOU.

Monday Poem #1 : Fantasy Skies

Falling off the sky

Hold my hand as we glide

Slowly yet gracefully we float downwards

Below lies a fantasy

Magical mysteries

Don't let go just yet

We're almost there 

Imaginations are just so easy to create, to find

Dreams networks within our mind 

A realm that you've never expected

Could be so fragile yet unexpected

Can it be?

Come follow me 

Discover mysteries that lie within the sight of what we see